When life screws you

Warning: This is a boring pessimistic post, it only has the few questions which keep poking my mind.

I was just listening to this news on Aarushi Murder case, finally it looks like they’ll be able to wrap it up with the real culprits behind bar. I do believe in that Talwar’s are innocent and it was some outsiders work. I’m biased towards this viewpoint and I want to believe in this one. It’s a rationalist view, and also an escapist view.

Getting into the irony which Talwar’s are going through in these days. Before this calamity, they were an ideal picture of a happy Indian upper middle class family. Now, suddenly one day, their only daughter is murdered, after some days the great UP police arrests the father. Just think for a moment something like this happening to you. Doesn’t it run chills down your spin. They say there is a God, what the hell was he doing at that moment. Why didn’t he save them, what was there sin. They were educated law abiding citizens of society who possibly could not harm anyone. Why they get to face all this shit? Imagine there grief pain in the moments. Loss of a daughter and getting accused of murdering her.

This was just an example of “when life screws you”, many of us would have faced similar situations in our lives. When all you feel like saying is what the fuck did I do wrong? What am I being punished for? Why me? Why me, always and every time? Did I do something wrong with someone?

At these moments the Christian belief life is a sin fits so well.

Why else does one suffer all this? What can be the reason behind that? Why is it always so difficult to be right and do right? Why is the wrong path always short whereas the right one is always so long. Why people suffer while traveling the right path. Why do one has to fight so much for getting the right done.

Why even an impotent can mobilize people for communal / racial or any fucking group riots but it takes some real balls to stand against evil or wrong.

If you’ve the answers don’t mind sharing them.

tum takal_uf ko ikhlaas samajhte ho faraz,

dost hota nahi har hanth milane wala.

GLOOMY SUNDAY MORNING

FUCK IS MY FAV EGLIESH WORD. It can be used as a noun, verb, adjective, adverd and gives out all your feelings which might rather take 2-3 adjectives. Whenever I try to meditate this is the only word which resonates in my mind.  Fuck Me!!! I have nothing better to do at this point of time on a Sunday Morning. Couldn’t sleep last night watched TV for the whole and nopes it’s not coz I love television it’s because my PC is crashed and can’t afford a new one till my next salary. Fuck me, this is one more reason for me to say Life Sucks. Anyways, I’m never short of reasons to say or believe Life Sucks!!!

Another most recent reason is changing of job at a wrong time when everyone is talking about recesion. Under hell lot of pressure to perform to show something nearthe target but no work is availble to do, how should I prove myself as a worthy employee.  Anways, I might be fired in a matter of few months. Fuck off, who cares! Well what did I say now, who cares. Lol, i’m fucking fooling myself. I care, coz no job can further ruin my already ruined situation. Oh, a lot of pessimism, my optimistic friends are gonna screw me, if they read this. Have faith, keep hope. These words suck big time. The only truth is end, my end and I’m looking forward to it.