Morning Raaga

It’s 4:00 AM no office still I’m awake, can’t sleep. Enjoying my best moments of the entire day. Mehndi Hasan playing on Winamp (Ranjish hi sahi dil hi dukhane k liye aa. Aa fir se mujhe chodd k jane k liye aa.) Awesome singer lyrics, awesome singer. Why can’t he be a mainstream thing, why are people so weired, why do they listen Dard-E-Disco. Why Javed Akhtar wrote this, what the fuck did he think? Now the song changes (Jo thake thake se the haunsle) another Gem from Mehndi Hasan (again same question why don’t people like him in mainstream). Why do I like him? Am I different from others? Am I dumber?Oh, Kurt said it well.

I’m not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone,
But I have a light
The day is done,
I’m having fun
I think I’m dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I’m just happy

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We’ll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we’ll come down
And have a hangover

Have a hangover

Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I’m not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone,
But I have a light
the day is done,
I’m having fun
I think I’m dumb
Or Maybe just happy

Was he in a similar situation when he wrote this??? He feels like a brother which I never had. Man why did he suicide. No one will understand, he was just too unhappy. He was too honest, he could see the end very clear. He did drugs. Drugs are bad, they are wrong, they kill but so does Dard-E-Disco. Why to accept Dard-E-Disco and despise heroin. Atleast, heroin gives u a life for sometime. It elevates you to a status a human should normally live, it makes life short and gay. I think I know why people do drugs, I’m sure drugs are much better than Dard-E-Disco.

Was reading how Abbas-Mastan made Race. Fuck them!!! Assholes, who gives them money. I can feel something crawling in my skin and biting me Paanch still isn’t released.

Now playing Abida Parveen.

3 things about GOD:

1. Either he doesn’t exist.

2. Else he has put the world on self-destruction mode.

3. Or he is too feeble and highly over estimated.

Should sleep now, life is Raping me again. I’ve to fight to save my Ass. Things will never change and improve. Looking forward to my End.